"You cannot petition the Lord with prayer"

I lost my wallet the other day. If I wasn't in a hurry, it wouldn't have mattered as much. Because I usually find it. It just takes time, patience and looking under things. Usually, when I take it out of my pocket I slip it in the kitchen drawer where I keep the water bill and loose change, so I always know where it is. But when don't do that, and lose it, and I can't find it quickly I automatically start petitioning the Lord with Prayer.

I started to bargain with God this time. But this time it was very different. Having thoughts of what I'd have to do to protect myself from the Sunami of identity theft or the feelings of drowning from my own imagined fear wasn't new. This time I started to go into a deep panic, which was new. But I had another problem...You see, I have doubts that there is a God. I doubt that an all powerful being with a beard will magically help me in times of need and trouble. Like when I lose my wallet. So I was in a panic and a real pickle.

(To be continued)



“People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.”

Jim Morrison